Kate's Journal and Memories

Kate’s Journal – Day 5

This Morning a woman, Joanna, drown just off shore. Boone had tried to swim out and save her, but then he started to go under too. Jack swam out and rescued him. By the time he was able to return Boone to shore and get back to her, she was gone. I know he feels bad, because afterwards he ran off into the jungle. I started to go after him…but then decided against it. I really think he needs to be alone right now. I will talk to him later, after he calms down. Jack wants to be able to save everyone, every time. I am worried about him.

Claire and I sorted through clothing that was found from the crash. I found a few pieces of clothing to wear. Claire found a hat.

We also discovered that we were just about out of water. I hope Jack finds some while he’s out. While we were dealing with the no water crisis, Claire passed out. Michael and Charlie carried her over to the tent Jack had set up. We searched for water for her but couldn’t find any. I went over to Sawyer’s tent, because he is always stealing anything that isn’t locked down. I looked around and he found me going through his things. We wrestled for a moment, then he pinned me down…he’s such an ass. As it turned out, the water that he had was his own personal stash. As it turns out…Boone took the rest of the water bottles!

Finally, after the sun went down, Jack returned. I was really beginning to worry. While he was out, he found water! He brought back as much as he could, but we are going back tomorrow for more. Later I found him on the beach. I took him some of the water, and sat down next to him. I really just needed to be near him for a little while; he has helped to keep me balanced over the past several days. It’s strange...I only just met him, but I feel like I’ve known him my whole life. I don’t know what it is about him that just makes me feel so comfortable. Unfortunately, I don’t know if my presence helped him or made him worse though. It seemed like I couldn’t do anything right: while we sat there, he told me his father died in Sydney. From what he said, it sounded like they didn’t have a very good relationship. Jack really didn’t want to talk about it, and I don’t want to push…he seems to have a lot on his mind, and I don’t think he’d deal well with questions. Then, I told him what a good job he did earlier with saving Boone. He is so upset about Joanna, he can’t even see the good he did for Boone. I wonder if this is all related to his father…he told me he failed…and failure doesn’t sit well with him. Jack is such a caring and compassionate person…I don’t understand how the word failure is even in his vocabulary…it’s just such a debilitating word! After upsetting him about Joanna and having him bring up his father which just further upset him, I finished him off by hurting his shoulder more…he had asked me to massage it for him, because he had hurt it almost falling off a cliff! All I wanted to do was help him feel better…

He said he was going to go for a walk…I came along too…he seemed to cheer up a little. About half way down the beach he held my hand…it is so ridiculous…but every time he does that I get butterflies in my stomach. He asked me about the night before and why I said what I said about the falling star…I didn’t want to spell it out for him because I was afraid of putting my feelings out there in case they weren’t returned. I decided to trust him, so I told him my wish was for him to kiss me. After that we had a misunderstanding, I started to go back to my tent when he grabbed me and pulled me into the most beautiful kiss I’ve ever received. It was full of gentleness and caring. I’ve never felt that before in a kiss. He took my breath away… I can’t write anything else tonight, because I want that kiss to be the last thing I think about as I go to sleep tonight…that’s right…tonight I will be sleeping. I think Jack’s kiss may be enough to chase my nightmares away…tonight I felt what it was like to be cared for…and it was wonderful…

~Kate

Kate’s Journal ~ Day 4

Last night I couldn’t sleep after Jack and my argument over the Marshall, so I spent the night on the beach. I just watched the tide move in and out, and the moon move across the sky. It gave me plenty of time to think…I wanted to run. I wanted to run really badly. I’ve done it for so long; it feels more natural than any of the other emotions I am feeling right now…

This morning when I was watching the sun come up, Jack found me on the beach. We sat in the sand and talked for a little while, when he reached over and held my hand. He told me that we have all been given a second chance. No one has ever given me a second chance before. He said that he needed a second chance too. When we were talking, I could see such pain in his eyes; the pain couldn’t just be from his sister. I wonder if Jack has been running too. I really enjoy talking and spending time with him. He also makes the enormous weight that I am carrying a little easier…I hope he will allow me to help him carry whatever it is he has on his shoulders too!

This morning on the beach I felt so close to him. Just seconds before Charlie found us…he was about to kiss me. When he put his hand on my cheek and pulled me towards him, and as I felt his stubble, and his soft lips graze across my mouth...I felt like I could have melted into him. I wonder what it would have felt like…if only we could have had a few more minutes…

Now I have to go boar hunting with Michael and Locke. I really am only going for Sayid. He asked me to boost some equipment into a tree in hopes of locating the power source for the island. I told Jack I was going…he wasn’t thrilled about it, but he has to say and help load the fuselage with wood for tonight.

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I’m back now…

While we were in the jungle a boar charged at us. Michael’s leg was hurt, so I took him back to the beach while Locke went off on his own to find the boar. I can’t decide if he’s really that brave or just plain crazy. Later, when I was trying to strap Sayid’s triangulator on to the tree, that crazy monster appeared, I dropped it and then the monster went off in the direction of Locke. I though we’d never see him again, but then later he arrived at the beach with a boar!

After dinner we lit the fuselage. Claire and Hurley read off the names of everyone who died in the crash. I didn’t see Jack anywhere, so I went to look for him. I found him on the beach by the water and sat next to him. We talked a lot, we are going to go out again tomorrow and look for Jordan. I asked him about why he ran into the jungle today, but he didn’t want to talk about it. The whole time I spent with him felt like a dream, because in real life these things don’t happen to me. Jack was lying on the sand while I was sitting next to him…we were holding hands. Yes…holding hands! I can’t remember the last time I held hands just to feel closeness with someone! Then, he gently pulled me down to lay next to him and watch the stars. It’s good that I was lying down or I might have collapsed since my whole body was tingling. Before I knew it, he had kissed me. Even though it was a very small kiss…it was still a very big kiss…because it was from Jack. He makes me want to feel again…

Memories from Day 3

Jack and Kate’s Talk After She Returns from the Night in the Jungle with the Transceiver Group

JACK:  Anything else you want to tell me Kate? [He looks at her, torn because he wants to comfort her and yell at her in the same moment]

[Kate wants to tell him that she does know the Marshall and that she was the one who the handcuffs belong to. She also wants to tell him, she missed him last night. But she is so afraid. All she does is shake her head and look down at the ground]

KATE:  No, Jack.

JACK:  Right. I see Sawyer went with you. Doesn't really look like the Boy Scout type. [Jack said as they walk towards Kate's tent]

[She smiles at Jack]

KATE:  No. He doesn't strike me as the Boy Scout type either, but he proved himself useful. He shot a polar bear.

[Jack looks at her, smiling slightly at her joke]

JACK:  A polar bear. Really well I just performed a triple bypass heart surgery...come on Kate...

[She smiles at him again]

KATE:  I know Jack, it sounds crazy, and if I didn't see it with my own two eyes, I wouldn't believe it either! It kind of makes you wonder what kind of crazy island this is!

[Jack's face is more serious now]

JACK: Are you okay? You need to stop running out into the jungle the first chance you get. What's so bad about just staying on the beach, Kate? Nothing's going to get you here.

[She looks down at the ground]

KATE: Running is the only thing I know how to do. [She wanted to add...when I'm scared, but she didn't want him to know] Besides, how do you know we are any safer here? The other night that thing, came over here to us, remember?

[Jack sighs, he knows he's made her uncomfortable and he feels bad.]

JACK:  I'm sorry. I was just worried about you all night. And you're right I don't know if we're any safer but there is safety in numbers, Kate.

KATE: I know [She smiled at him and leaned in a little to bump shoulders as they walked] I missed you last night too.

JACK:  Why did you guys stay in the jungle? You should have come back. [His hand brushes against hers and he wants to grab it so badly but he restrains himself.]

KATE:  I know, but we appeared to be in a relatively safe place and we knew that if we tried to make it back to the beach we'd never make it before dark and then we’d be stuck in the jungle.

JACK:  That doesn't matter, Kate. Sayid should have known better than to risk your lives. [Jack puts his hand on her upper arm] Just be careful okay?

[She blushed a little bit, maybe Jordan is right, make he does have feelings for her. She looked over at him and smiled]

KATE:  Okay, I'll be careful.

JACK:  Listen, I know this is kind of silly but my sister's a little...overprotective of my relation...friendships and she was acting all weird yesterday. I just wanted to warn you that she doesn't have anything against you personally.

KATE:  Thanks, Jack. She's a nice girl, we met yesterday.

JACK:  You did?

[They stop outside Kate’s tent]

KATE:  Yes, before I left with the transceiver.

JACK:  Oh… [Jack looks slightly worried but he plays it off]

[Kate grabs his hand as he starts to leave]

KATE:  Jack wait, there is something else I want to tell you.

[Jack doesn't let go, but only hold on tighter]

JACK:  What is it?

[Kate looks down, she's scared to tell him, if he hates her it will be over, but if she doesn't their whole relationship will be based on deception and Kate couldn't live with hurting him]

KATE:  Jack, will you come inside for a minute, I really don't want everyone else knowing what I'm about to tell you.

[Jack nods and follows her into the tent, still holding her hand]

[Kate turns and faces him. She takes hold of his other hand partially to stop her own shaking and partially to feel him one last time before he runs away from her forever]

KATE:  Jack, before you asked me if I knew the man with the shrapnel that you are treating, and I said that I sat next to him on the plane. Well there is a reason why I was sitting next to him...

[Kate pauses to catch her breath, she can feel her eyes filling up with tears for all the pain she has caused everyone in her past and now what she was about to do to Jack]

KATE:  He was transporting me back to the United States, Jack.

[Jack shakes his head...trying to let what she has just told him sink in]

JACK:  You...were the criminal?

[Kate lets go of one of his hand to put her hand on his chest]

KATE:  Jack, I'm so sorry. [Tears begin running down her face] I'm so sorry.

[Jack puts his arms around her, comforting her even though he's not sure if he should stay or run]

JACK:  Kate its okay, its okay. Stop crying.

[Kate wraps her arms around his waist]

KATE: I can't…I'm so scared.

JACK:  I know you are, Kate. But whatever it is, you can tell me.

    [Jack puts his hand against her face]

KATE:  Jack...I've done some terrible things in my past...things that I deeply regret...I've always been able to run away...but now I'm here on an island with nowhere to go...[she wants to continue and tell him that now she thinks he is going to hate her...but she stops]

JACK:  Kate, I've done some bad things in my life too, things I regret. But you just said it, we are on an island. And whether we like it or not, no one is coming for us.

You're safe here.

[Kate looks up at Jack as another tear rolls down her cheek, she can't understand why he is still standing here and not half way down the beach by now. She nods in agreement to what he just said]

KATE:  Okay, I guess you're right?

[Jack hugs her tighter before taking a step back]

JACK:  We've all got demons, Kate. I'm not going to punish you for yours.

JACK:  You should try to get some rest, Kate; you look pretty tired.

KATE:  Yeah, I didn’t sleep very well last night in the jungle.

[Kate slips off her shoes and Jack turns and head out of her tent. Kate lies down on the bed as Jack turns around to look at her]

JACK:  I’ll see you in a few hours.

[Kate closes her eyes and quickly falls asleep; emotionally drained from her talk with Jack and the night before in the jungle]

Jack and Kate’s Conversation

Day 3 – The Search for Jordan

[Jack is gone only a few minutes and then comes running back across the beach to Kate's tent, holding a letter]

JACK:  KATE! KATE! ....She's gone, she's gone

     [Kate jumps as Jack runs into her tent]

     KATE:  Jack, what's wrong! Who's gone!

[Jack has tears in his eyes as he hands the letter to her.]

JACK:  Jordan...dammit!

[Kate quickly reads the letter]

KATE:  Oh, Jack! Did you check the beach! Is she still here?

[Jack nods but he's crying now, and pacing in the tent.]

JACK:  I looked Kate I can't find her...I can't find her and it's all my fault

[Kate goes over to Jack and puts her hand on his arm]

KATE:  Jack, I'm so sorry. Where do you think she could have gone?

[He sucks in his breath and looks away]

JACK:  In the jungle

JACK:  I'm going after her Kate. And I need your help.

KATE:  Of course Jack...anything!

JACK:  I want you to get Sayid, anyone who can look. We're going after her.

KATE:  Okay, I'll tell Sayid to organize a search party; but Jack...I'm coming with you.

[Jack leaves the tent and starts away from Kate's tent but he stops because he's crying]

[Kate runs to tell Sayid, who fortunate is near her tent. She sees Jack stop on the beach and runs back to him]

KATE:  Jack, I told Sayid. Do you need anything before we go?

[He turns to her, and he can't speak. He pulls her into his arms, his head bent and resting on the top of her shoulder.]

[Kate holds him tight in her arms to comfort him]

KATE:  We will find her Jack. It will be okay.

JACK:  Thank you, Kate.

[They head off towards where Sayid has gathered a group of people. Splitting into groups of two they head off into the jungle. By now Jack has had a few deep breaths and is thinking straighter]

JACK:  It's like looking for a needle in a haystack. Jordan! Jordan!

[Kate looks desperately for some hint of Jordan. She is good at tracking, but she needs to find where she started]

KATE:  Jack, can you think of any where that Jordan may have been lately...that she may return to?

JACK:  Kate, in case you haven't noticed, Jordan and I don't have the greatest relationship. She's not exactly the communicating type.

[Jack punches the tree next to him]

KATE:  I'm Sorry Jack. I'm just trying to help.

JACK:  I know, Kate. I know. I'm sorry. [He squeezes her hand for reassurance.]

KATE:  It's okay Jack. I'm just trying to find away to pick up her trail. [She hold his hand a little tighter too] We will find her Jack.

[Jack nods and goes to say something but is interrupted by Sayid and a few other people. They report that they haven't found anything and that they should head back to the beach because it will be dark soon]

JACK: I can't leave her out here!! [He looks to Kate as the rest of the group starts to head back to the beach]

[Kate looks at him, she can see the pain in his eyes. She takes her backpack off and opens it. She hands him one of the two flashlights she grabbed from the beach]

KATE: We'll keep looking.

[Jack takes the flashlight from her but he knows that too go deeper into the jungle, in the dark is risking not only his life but Kate's as well]

JACK:  I want you to go back to the beach

[Kate shakes her head]

KATE:  Absolutely not Jack. I'm not leaving you.

JACK:  Go back, Kate. This is my sister, and I don't want you risking your life when we probably won't.... [He stops because saying the thought would make it real]

KATE: Jack, I will stand here and argue with you if you want too, but we are losing daylight.  I am not leaving you.

[Jack says nothing but marches off into the jungle, pretending not to care if Kate follows]

[Kate follows Jack and calls for Jordan too]

[Jack is several hundred feet of Kate, yelling for Jordan and swearing under his breath]

JACK: WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME??

[Kate can hear him yelling to his sister. She can hear in his voice how scared he is for her]

KATE:  Jordan! Jordan!

JACK:  This is fruitless. We're going back.

[Something in Jack has snapped, he is so angry and so scared that he no longer has the capacity to care]

[Kate is shocked at his change of heart, she wonders if he could shut her out just as quickly]

KATE:  Jack. Are you sure?

[Jack does not respond. He brushes past her and towards the beach]

[Kate runs up behind him]

KATE:  Jack! She's your sister...are we going to just leave her out here...alone?

JACK:  Kate. Enough.

[They've made it back to the beach and the Marshall's screams can be heard]

[Jack and Kate are walking side by side, she looks over at him]

KATE:  How long is he going to have to suffer like that?

Two, three, maybe four days

[He pulls an empty water bottle from his bag to fill up]

KATE: Can’t you do anything?

JACK:  Do anything? Kate what do you think I've been doing for the last three days?

KATE:  You've been doing the best you can do, Jack. [She says as she puts her hand on his arm] But you don't have the medical supplies here to save him.

JACK:  What do you want me to do, Kate?

[Jack looks at her]

KATE: I don't know Jack...he just doesn't deserve to suffer for several more days...

JACK:  You want me to kill him? Put him out of his misery. Stop his 'suffering'

[Kate looks away, she knows she shouldn't have gone down this road with him...he's too good to even think of such an act. Now she can feel him glaring at her as she slowly looks up to meet his glare]

KATE:  I just hate to see him suffer like this...

JACK:  I may have done things I regret in my life, Kate. But I am not a murderer.

[Jack turns and walks into the tent, leaving Kate standing on the beach]

Kate’s Journal ~ Day 3

Last night I spent the night away from the beach with Sayid, Charlie, Sawyer, Boone, and Shannon. When were on our way back from finding the signal the sun started setting so we found a safe place to make camp for the night, rather than trying to go through the jungle in the dark.

When we returned to the beach in the morning, everyone came out to meet us; including Jack. Sayid decided that it would be best not to tell everyone of the transmission we heard from the French woman, he said we would take away everyone’s hope. I pulled Jack aside from the rest of the group because I wanted him to know the truth. While we were talking he asked me why we stayed out all night. He seems kind of mad; I think he was just worried. He walked me to my tent, when we arrived I asked him to come inside, because I wanted to talk to him away from everyone else. I told him about how I knew the Marshall. I had to tell him the truth. His reaction was not what I expected he held me in his arms and told me he has his demons too, and he was not going to punish me from mine. I can’t believe him; he has the most amazing capacity for compassion, more than anyone I have ever known. He left so that I could get some rest. I was pretty emotionally drained from telling Jack about my past, but I trust him…that is why he is also the first person I told my real name to in a very long time.

A few minutes later he was back in my tent with a letter from his sister Jordan. He was terribly upset, she had run away. We had Sayid organize a search party then we were off to look. We walked for miles and miles but were unable to find her. The other survivors had already turned back. We continued on for a little while and Jack just snapped, and said he was done. He headed back to the beach. It scared me to see him change so quickly from caring to completely shutting her out. I wonder what happened to him that could cause him to detach so completely from his emotions. Also, I wondered if he would ever do that to me!

When we got back to the beach, we heard the Marshall crying out in pain. I shouldn’t have said anything to Jack, but I did. I asked him if he could do anything to put him out of his misery. He got really mad and me and right before he stormed off, he came real close to me, looked me square in the eye and said “I am not a murderer.”  Those words hurt me so much. He’s right though…he is not a murderer…I am…

All I could do was run. I ran down the beach about a mile or so and sat down by the water to watch the waves in the moonlight. I don’t know why those words hurt me so much…they are the truth. Perhaps it’s because they were said by Jack; the only person who’s opinion of me actually matters. I laid back in the sand to look at the stars. I don’t know why his opinion of me matters so much. I don’t know why I think he would feel anything for me. I don’t know why I think I deserve any happiness after all the pain I’ve caused.  I don’t know why I am thinking about him now. Maybe because every time I look at him I get butterflies in my stomach; or because when we are close and his skin grazes mine, my heart skips a beat, and then today when he held me in his arms... I was no longer lost.

I wiped the tears from my eyes. I need to forget it…he will only ever see me as a murderer. I don’t deserve him and he deserves so much more then me.

Today Jack, Charlie and I went on a hike into the jungle in search of the cockpit. We were trying to find the transceiver in hopes of sending a distress call. While we were in the cockpit the pilot woke up! He scared me to death! He told Jack and I that we were 1000 miles off course when we crashed. The search party is not going to be able to find us. Then the monster came and shook the plane. Jack grabbed me as I was about to fall. He held me tight in his arms; for as scared as I was, I felt safe there. Then the monster grabbed the pilot and ripped him out of the broken window. Jack, Charlie, and I ran as fast as we could; I was in front and by the time I reached a safe hiding place I was all alone. I was so scared I yelled for Jack, but he didn’t respond. I didn’t know what to do so I counted to 5; 1-2-3-4-5 just like Jack said when he tried to overcome fear. It worked, I left my hiding place and I went back to find him. I found Charlie first, then the pilot, then Jack.

We came back to the beach just as a fight was breaking out. Walt and Michael found the handcuffs, my handcuffs. Sawyer thought they belonged to Sayid. He was beating him up. I fear for what they are going to do to me. They can’t find out! Especially Jack, I don’t know why…but I need him in my life right now. He gives me hope and that is something I haven’t felt for so long.

Later we went swimming. While we were swimming a wave knocked me into him. He aught me and held me in his arms for a second until we realized what had happened; then he let me go. I quickly turned so he wouldn’t see me blush. I don’t know why I even allow myself to think these thought. He could never feel anything for me…I’m just no good.

Sayid, fixed the transceiver. He asked me to go with him into the jungle to make it work. I told Jack, he wasn’t happy that I was going out there. He was removing the shrapnel from the Marshall and couldn’t come too. So Sayid, Sawyer, Charlie, Boone, Shannon, & I went. The only transmission we received was another out message. It’s been playing for 16 year…no one is ever coming for us!  Then we had to camp in the jungle for the night. Oh, and just when you think things can’t get any crazier…Sawyer shot a Polar Bear! Yes, that’s right a Polar Bear! This place is crazy.

Memories from Day 2:

          Jack and Kate’s Afternoon Verbal Copulation

[Kate is trying to set up a makeshift tent incase it rains again. Jack walks over to her, holding a piece of tarp.]

JACK: Thought you might be able to use this.

KATE: Thanks, it’ll definitely keep the monsters out.

[Jack laughs, but he can tell she’s worried.]

JACK: Kate, I want to know just as much as you do what that thing is out there.

[Kate smiles back]

KATE: Well what ever it is, it scared the hell out of me this morning, and so did you by the way.

JACK: It scared me too, Kate. I'm not saying it didn't but there's a logical explanation I'm sure. [Jack looks away and then looks back at her] How did I scare you?

KATE: When we were running from...[looks to Jack]... your logical explanation. I thought you were right behind me, but you weren't. I stopped and called for you, but you didn't answer. [She looks away for him.] I thought it got you.

JACK: I was right behind you, I wanted to make sure you found somewhere to hide but then Charlie tripped and...I'm sorry I left you [Jack bends his head as if just realizing what could have happened to her as well]

KATE: That okay Jack. [Kate lightly bumps him with her shoulder as she opened the tarp.] Everything turned out okay.

[Jack nods but he's unconvinced]

JACK: Yes but we're lucky; it didn't out so okay for the pilot.

[Kate looked down]

KATE: No it didn't.

[Jack turns to her and puts his hand on her arm]

JACK: Just promise me that you'll be careful okay. If you go out there, don't go alone. I'll come with you.

[Kate looks at him and smiles]

KATE: Okay, Jack. I promise...if you do too.

JACK: Deal. Hey, want to go for a swim?

KATE: Now?

JACK: Yeah come on! It will be fun.

KATE: Let me change into my bathing suit. Can you hold the tarp up to block people trying to  

get a free show?

[Jack smiles and nods, grabbing the tarp.]

JACK: Does that include me?

[Kate gasps and pretends to look shocked.]

KATE: Jack, just hold up the tarp.

[Jack lets the tarp hang against Kate’s tent as she changes into her bathing suit.]

JACK: Are you done?

[Kate pokes her head out of the tarp.]

KATE: All done.

[Jack lets go of the tarp and gets a full view of Kate in her red bikini. Jack starts to walk to the edge of  

the water, pulling off his socks and shoes. Kate follows him]

KATE: Okay...maybe the monster can't swim.

[Jack pulls off his shirt, his stitches still red but healing.]

JACK: We won't go out far.

[Kate takes a moment to look at the tattoos on his arms before diving into a wave.]

KATE: This feels great!

[Jack follows Kate in the water, trying to avert his eyes but every now and then a small patch of her skin appears above the water and it makes him lose his breath]

JACK: I never can get used to salt water though.

[Kate swims past Jack]

KATE: Well stop drinking the water than silly.

[Just then an unexpected wave pushes Kate into Jack]

JACK: Its okay, I have you!

[Kate gasps for a breath and blushes but Jack can't see because she turns her head.]

KATE: Thanks Jack. Where did that wave come from anyway?

[Jack laughes, glad that he had the opportunity just to touch her again]

JACK: I don’t know I didn’t notice it until it was on top of you.

[Kate smiles at him.]

KATE: Thanks for catching me.

[Jack and Kate are now close to each other, every once and awhile their feet touch as they tread water in the ocean]

JACK: I don't think they're going to come for us, Kate.

[Kate looks up to the beach] 

KATE: I know Jack. How you think they are going to take it?

 [Jack turns to her]

JACK: I think it might be hard for them to adjust at first; especially if we start to run out of food and water.

[Kate looks up to meet Jack's eyes]

KATE: I know.

KATE: We should go probably head back in, you should check on the Marshall.

 [Jack nodded and they both swam back to shore]

Memories from Day 2:

          The Trek Back from the Cockpit

[Charlie runs ahead of Jack and Kate to find Claire, leaving the pair alone as they walk towards the beach]

JACK: Kate, I don't want you to say anything about the pilot, okay?

KATE: Why not Jack, don' t you think everyone has the right to know?

JACK: Kate, they are already freaked out about the "monster" in the jungle. I don't think they need to know that it eats people as well.

[Jack steps in front of Kate's path.]

     [Kate fold her arms and looks down at the ground.]

KATE:  I don't know Jack. [She looks up in to his eyes.] If you really feel strongly about this, I will trust you, and not say anything. Remember though we weren't alone.

[Jack sighs, remembering that Charlie was with them]

JACK: I'll talk to him; maybe I can catch him before he tells the whole camp.

[Kate touches his forearm as Jack turns to go]

KATE: Wait Jack. I'm glad you are okay.

[Jack smiles, touched that she cares]

JACK: I'm glad you're okay too, Kate. I was worried about you.

[Kate feels nervous about the shared emotion and looks away.]

KATE: We should go find Charlie before he talks.

[Jack reaches over and tucks a strand of Kate's hair behind her ear. Realizing that he may have overstepped his boundaries he becomes flustered]

JACK: Uh...it was in your face...and yeah let's go and find Charlie.

[Kate smiles]

KATE: Thanks...let me know if you find a hairdresser out here. I could really use one.

[Jack laughs and they continue onto the beach, where they can hear people yelling]

KATE: What do you think is going on?

JACK: I don't know, I hope Charlie didn't say anything!

[Jack runs around the bush to see Sayid and Sawyer fighting, the group surrounding them.]

[Kate watches as Jack runs in to break up the fight]

Memories from Day 1:

          Jack and Kate’s Evening Verbal Copulation

[Kate walks over to Jack who is sitting by the water's edge watching the last of the sunset]

KATE: Hey there is this seat taken?

[Jack looks up and sees Kate standing before him]

JACK: Hey stranger.

[Kate sits down next to Jack]

KATE: How are your stitches holding up?

JACK: I've been better but I think I'll survive.

[She smiles at him]

KATE: I know. I know. So am I going to say it or are you?

[Jack looks at her, confused]

JACK: Say what?

KATE: That thing...in the jungle, pushing the trees. What do you think it is? I mean it came right up here to the beach, but we couldn’t see it!

[Jack looks somewhat relived, like it's only the monster she was talking about]

JACK: Honestly Kate, I have no idea.  Giraffes…Elephants...I don't know...

KATE: It didn't sound like a wild animal though. [Kate smiles at him] We must have all the luck. First our plane crashes, then of all the islands that we could possibly land on, we get some creepy haunted one!

[Jack laughs]

JACK: Kate its not haunted...

KATE: How do you know?

JACK: Kate there's no such thing as ghosts.

KATE: Oh, yeah, then how come I have to face them every day?

[Jack turns to her.]

JACK:  We've all got ghosts like that Kate. But you know that wasn't what i was talking about.

KATE: I know. [She looks over at him and smiles] I guess we will find out more tomorrow when we go looking for the cockpit.

[Jack stands up and turns to Kate, wiping the sand from his pants.]

JACK: I guess you're right...we should try and get some sleep before heading out tomorrow. You can...uh..sleep near me if you want, just to be safe.

 [Kate stands up too]

KATE: Thanks.

JACK: It's the least I can do.

[He goes to put his hand on her back but refrains; instead they just walk towards the people at the fire.]

Memories from Day 1:

          Kate sewing Jack’s Wound

[Kate bites lip nervously as she tugs on the thread]  

KATE: I'm sorry, it's almost done. I'm not hurting you too much am I?

[Jack winces but shakes his head.]

JACK: You're a pro at this. I really appreciate it.

[Kate smiles]

KATE: I'm hardly a pro at giving someone stitches. Here, can you hand me the scissors?

[Jack reaches over for the scissors and hands them to Kate, their fingers brush against each other]

JACK: Make sure the knot is large enough at the bottom so it won't...you know...go through my skin.

KATE: Oh, sure, or first I can wrap it around another stitch to make it more secure, than double knot it. Would that be okay?

[Jack smiles and nods]

JACK: That would be great. Are you okay?

[Kate sighs]

KATE: Well, I guess I am as good as can be expected after my airplane crashed on and island in the middle of the ocean. At least I am alive.

[Kate says under her breath as she trims the extra thread]

KATE (CONT'D): If that is a blessing? Okay Jack you're all fixed. Would you like me to pour some more alcohol on it?

JACK: Yeah, if there's any left.

[He winces as she pours the vodka on the wound and then he turns around to face her, noticing her wrists]

JACK (CONT'D):Here, let me look at your wrists.

[He reaches for her arms]

[Kate pulls back]

KATE: No Jack, they're fine. We really should get back to make sure everyone is okay.

[Kate stands up and picks up Jack's shirt]

KATE (CONT'D): Here let me help you...so you don't pull your stitches.

[Kate holds up his shirt for him to slip his arms in.]

[Jack looks at Kate warily but doesn't press the issue of her wrists. He slides his shirt on and starts buttoning it up]

JACK: Thank you.

[Jack starts to head toward the wreakage but notices Kate isn't following him.]

JACK (CONT'D): You coming?

[Kate looks over at him, unsure.]

KATE: Do you want me too?

[Jack looks at her, fully realizing what a beautiful woman is standing before him]

JACK: Sure, I promise if there's any more stitching to do, I'll do it.

[Kate smiles she's not used to being wanted.]

KATE: Okay, but remember...you promised.

[Kate walks over to Jack]

KATE (CONT'D): Ready?

[Jack nods and follows Kate up the slope towards the fuselage]

Day One

Today our plane crashed. I am still in shock. I am happy to be free from the Marshall, but I am anything but free, I am trapped on an island in the middle of the pacific somewhere, with a bunch of strangers and myself. Why didn’t I die in the crash; So many others did how come I made it...after all I’ve done?

I hope no one finds out about my past. I need to keep it a secret. The Marshall is unconscious, I don’t know if he’ll make it.

Today after the crash I met someone, his name is Jack. He said he’s a doctor. He had a bad cut on his back and he asked me to sew him up…imagine that he wanted me to fix him! I wanted to tell him that I don’t fix people; I only hurt them…but there was something about him. For the first time in my life, I didn’t run, but stayed to help him. Afterwards, he wanted to see my wrists, but I wouldn’t let him. They are badly scratched from the handcuffs. I can’t let him find out about my past. He wouldn’t understand, and he would hate me.

After the sunset, the strangest thing happened. Some sort of creature approached the beach. I have no idea what it is; it bent trees out of the way and everything. I would where the hell we are?

Later I sat by the water with Jack. He doesn’t know what it is either. For some reason that I don’t understand, I feel safer being near to him. I’m going to enjoy it while it lasts, once he find out about my past…he will hate me. I don’t deserve someone as good as him…

Tomorrow we are going into the jungle to look for the cockpit. I hope we don’t meet up with whatever we saw tonight!